Some weeks ago, after an illness, my Grandad passed away.
The funeral was on Friday, my Dad stepped aside from the coffin when taking Grandad out from the church service to the place of rest, I was one of those pushing Grandad out the church. Lots of family politics and history that all disappeared for a few hours as the family actually felt like family. I was so stressed out though about there being an argument I’m not really sure I was all there on the day. I had jobs to do, things to arrange and it felt odd.
Then we got home on Saturday (day after), stuck on a random Spotify playlist and the song Grandad chose (although a different artist) “Old Shep” came on. Everything hit home then, I’ve not slept properly since. Grandad chose the Elvis version, the Jonny Cash version came on Spotify
The oddest thing I’ve ever been asked to do - the memorial service was recorded, I had my camera pointing at the church cross and saints on the wall to not capture faces but record the service for friends of the family in America. The evening was fun, sat outside with a burny bin, few beers and memories flooding back. You really don’t know what you’ve got until it has gone, I didn’t realise until we got home, far too busy making sure my Dad was coping and so was personally hiding under that.
So, why I’ve not been here much - there a some points in life that make you stop, take stock and make plans for what’s next. Business is good, family are all in good health, but what is it I really want. I provide so much and have ticked off all items you could have said were on my “bucket list” at 25 years old. Time for a new list
I can feel it, a few more tough days, I know I shouldn’t beat myself up - but when you sit listening to people taking about people who have left, the brain plays odd tricks. I met and started talking to relatives I simply lost touch with but spent most of your childhood with. In truth, I probably won’t speak to them again until … well you know
TPR was a much larger part of life than it is now, I’ve looked after the site for a few years now, in tech terms more than “mod” terms. Crunching numbers doesn’t quite have the same appeal as it once did. The site isn’t any trouble now, but that’s because there about a dozen hardcore non-Facebook users still here :lol:
Perhaps the geeks event in London next weekend will be the turning point, people at these events still, after all these years know me as DT
There’s no ask in this post, it’s just helped me typing it - TPR is still part of the family.
DT.